I write again because there is no one else I can turn to. I’d rather put my thoughts into words than let them fade away into complete nothingness. Is it bad to feel a little bit jealous when he looks at other guys? Is it bad to be angry and jealous when he tells you things that makes you feel bad about yourself. This somehow tricks your mind into thinking that you were never enough. That you were never something that he wanted. In this situation, am I the one settling? Or am I the one reaching out? I sometimes think if I was needed or wanted in the first place. Am I?